Lately, as you can probably tell, I’ve been slacking off on writing this blog. This stems from my slacking off in my daily time with God. Recently, I’ve been doing other things instead of spending time with my Heavenly Father, and as a result my behavior has changed dramatically. I’ve felt awful the past few weeks, I’ve had a horrible attitude, I’ve been getting angry over nothing, and been unkind to many people around me. I’ve felt far away from God.
In order to remedy this I decided that I needed to start reading my Bible more, and pray more, so I did. But I didn’t feel any better. I continued in these bad habits that come so naturally to me. I would pray “God, please help me feel better.” “Lord, help me feel your presence.” These aren’t necessarily bad prayers to pray, but that’s all I wanted.
I woke up with the revelation yesterday that I wasn’t looking to work on my relationship with God, I just wanted a quick fix to make me feel good again, which is wrong. Jesus didn’t die to make us feel good, He died for a relationship. He could’ve let us perish in our sin and go to hell, but He wasn’t content with that. His love compelled Him to make a way for us to have a relationship with Him.
A relationship, any relationship, can’t be a one way street, both parties have to be involved or else it’s going to fail.
So, my question to you is: are you whole-heartedly pursuing a relationship with God, or are you just looking to feel better?