Those people who know me well know that I am in fact a control freak. I must always be in control of everything from my emotions, to my actions, to even the circumstances around me. Obviously, this is an impossible thing to do. I am well aware of this fact, but I still continue to struggle for control instead of handing it all over to God.
Lately, God has been taking me through this adventure of the unknown, although this might sound fun to some people, it’s definitely not fun for me. God has stripped me of my plan, of all control in regards to my future, which means that I have to trust Him. Until tonight I thought that I’ve been doing a pretty good job at trusting God, and not being a control freak.
Tonight in my prayer time with God, I was listening to my iPod when a song called Let it Go by Tenth Avenue North came on. Then I realized, I maintain control when communicating with God, I don’t allow myself to let go of my emotions. I’m holding part of myself back from God.
“Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.” -Matthew 10:39
To me, letting go is part of losing your life for Christ’s sake. It’s part of our obligation to take up our cross and follow Him. We all are holding onto things that God wants us to get rid of. So what are you holding onto? What does God want from you, what is He telling you to let go of? It could be a particular sin, guilt, an attitude, a past hurt; whatever it is, Let it go!