It’s amazing how God can use a crisis in your life to reveal things about you that you didn’t know about yourself. A crisis is an opportunity to put your money where your mouth is and see if you really believe what you say you believe. It’s the time to see if you really practice what you preach.
Right now I am going through an identity crisis of sorts. I have always identified myself not by what other people say, but my “position” in life. I haven’t realized that until now. God has brought me to a place where I don’t really know how to define myself. I don’t know who I am. That’s a pretty scary thought, especially when I’ve been telling other people to not define themselves by what others say, but what God says. I have been a hypocrite. That’s changing though.
This morning I found this verse in Deuteronomy 32: 10. It says:
“He found him in a desert land, and in the howling waste of the wilderness; he encircled him, he cared for him, he kept him as the apple of his eye.”
I grew up in the desert, and it can be a very hot, unpleasant place to live. God had to bring Jacob into a wasteland, where he had nothing. I don’t know about you, but when “waste” is the word used to describe a place, I don’t feel the desire to visit there. Thank God that the verse doesn’t end there. God was able to come to him in that wasteland. God met him in that place, cared for him, and treasured him.
That verse was so comforting to me this morning. I feel like I’m in a wasteland right now. I feel like God has taken everything from me, I feel like I have nothing. But it’s amazing to know that it’s in that place that God can and will meet us and show us who He is. When you’re in that place where you feel like you have nothing, cry out to God. He will meet you there and minister to you. Your cries to God don’t go unnoticed. Look through the stories in the Bible. He heard Hagar in the wilderness, He heard the nation of Israel over and over again the book of Judges, and He heard the Jews praying for Esther.
Despite your present circumstance, know that you are the apple of His eye, His precious child, and don’t let anyone or anything tell you any different. Cry out to Him in the middle of your wilderness, ask Him to meet you in the middle of your “waste” and wait to see what He will do. He surely won’t disappoint.