What Prayer IS – Freeing

I am a workaholic with occasional control freak tendencies and for years I found my identity in my work. In my mind, I wasn’t worthy of things like love or honor or even agency on my own, those were things that had to be earned and I earned them through my work. In my mind it was dependent on me to earn those things in life I wanted. If I didn’t work hard, if I didn’t do my best, then I was destined for failure. I felt immense pressure in those times and seasons – I couldn’t live up to the impossible standard I had imposed upon myself. As you can imagine, my rigidity, the crippling pressure I was under, and my lack of self-worth had a negative bearing on many of my relationships. 

Recently I realized that I had fallen back into the pattern of feeling as though it was all up to me and no one else. My world begun spiraling a little bit, I grew angry and upset and lost the joy that had once been flowing so freely through me. I felt closed off and restricted, the world was no longer a beautiful place but one of entrapment. 

But then I returned to Jesus.

I hadn’t strayed far, but had neglected my time with him. The intentionality I once had in my conversations with the Lord had faded and I was consumed with work and my agenda and what I could accomplish in my own strength.

“Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”
2 Corinthians 3:17 (NIV)

Over weeks and months I had grabbed different items and burdens I had no business carrying and piled them onto my shoulders. I thought my broad shoulders were strong enough to carry the load. Because I added one or two things at a time it didn’t seem like that much, it wasn’t a big deal in the moment. But over time it became a burden. I was trapped in a space of my own making and wasn’t able to be freed until I asked for help from someone stronger. 

Jesus is able to remove those burdens, those things that we unintentionally add to ourselves, and free us from our perfectionism, shame, guilt, fear, and so much more. True freedom is found only in him. Come to him in prayer today and drag in any rocks or boulders or suitcases or baggage or dead things with you, leaving them at his feet. Let him remove those things from you and let’s trust that he knows best and can handle that burden for you. Take up his yoke today, the way of life outlined in his Word, and live in surrender and gratitude. 

Today is a great day because we are free indeed! {tweet this}

“It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.” Galatians 5:1 (NIV)


 

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  1. This was really good Sarah! Thank you for the great reminder to make my prayer time a priority so I don’t try to pick up my old baggage and carrying it around with me all day long. Thank you for another great post!

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