Prayer Position – Willing

I am stubborn. There is no disputing that. When I am passionate about something or have a strong opinion on something it’s unlikely that I’m going to change. There are some things that I will sink my heels in on and not move an inch. Sometimes this is a good trait and other times it comes back around to bite me. I’ve learned that being stubborn with God is never a good idea.

Have you ever been stubborn or unwilling with God? Have you ever known you needed to bring something to him but didn’t want to because you didn’t want to hear what he might have to say about it? Or you knew what God has to say on a subject though you continued doing it anyway?

I have never dated anyone because I love being single and I don’t have time for a romantic relationship. A few years back I realized, through some difficult conversations, that I had been emotionally dating one of my friends, something the Lord was less than pleased about. This friend is a great guy who loves Jesus but we weren’t good for each other; we weren’t leading each other closer to the Lord. Over the course of months I felt like our friendship wasn’t healthy but, because he made me feel less lonely and distracted me from my situation, I just kept on going. One morning, after we had an hours long phone conversation the previous night, I felt the Lord say “end it”. I protested. This guy, though he was hundreds of miles away, was part of the reason why I hadn’t fallen into an all-out depression. I disagreed and I dug my heels in. I wasn’t going to do it. But I couldn’t shake that feeling in the pit of my stomach that I needed to obey. I wasn’t getting out of this one. So that night, almost 12 hours later, after Sunday night football, I called him and I ended it, telling him we couldn’t talk anymore. Now, because it’s been a few years, we’ll occasionally have a brief conversation, but nothing like we used to. And I’m thankful for that.

For months I had been unwilling to bring our friendship to the Lord. I hadn’t wanted God’s opinion on it because I was afraid of what would happen if he “took it away”. I wasn’t willing to obey when he first told me to end it because I was scared of the results. Yet, when I finally did, the Lord was able to begin healing some things in me because I was no longer distracted.

Are you willing to come to God with your everything? Are there any parts of you that are “off-limits” to God? Again, there’s no judgment here, I have withheld parts of my heart, goals, dreams, emotions, and more from God. I’ve been unwilling to let him into parts of my life for many different reasons; if you’re in that boat now, I get it, I’m right there with you. I’m consistently having to open myself up to God again.

Are you willing to listen to Him? His instructions, his rebukes, his kindness? Are you willing to accept that which he graciously offers?

And are you willing to follow through with obedience?

Whether you’re at a 1 or a 100 on the “willingness scale”, come to him today. He’s not waiting until you’re perfect or shaking his head at you because you’re not 100%, but he’s beckoning you in just as you are. It’s in his presence that we grow and change and shed those things that so easily entangle us, but we first have to be willing to come {tweet this}.


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