During certain seasons, I am more acutely aware of the fact that God desires to be with us. When I take the time to really sit and think about this profound truth, I am awe-struck. The reality that God wants to spend time with me is overwhelming and awesome. But what does it mean to walk with God?
I once heard a sermon where the pastor shared how God was speaking to her while she was walking her dog one day. Her dog was either lagging way behind or running ahead and pulling her. While she was going through this process with her dog, she felt the Lord speak to her about how she walked with God. Sometimes she lags behind, not wanting to follow his direction, though she loves him whole-heartedly. Other times she gets impatient and wants to run ahead of God, getting frustrated at his pace.
I still think about that sermon often because I find myself in the same boat. I wonder what my walk with God currently feels like for him.
Currently, I’m probably lagging behind—in fact, I know he’s dragging me forward. I want to run in another direction. When I follow the path of least resistance, I pull toward where I want to go, though I know that’s not where I should be. But, at the same time, I want my walk to be in lockstep with him. Right now, I’m being pulled between two competing desires: running away and staying in step, both of which I want.
“He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.
And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.” Micah 6:8 (NIV)