As I have been praying and processing through this season with the Lord, I keep feeling as though revival is coming. Explosive growth is on its way and an increase in influence is imminent. I don’t have specifics, but I can’t shake this hopeful expectation I have for this next season.
When I get that sense, it’s really hard for me to stay in the present. I want the good. I want to make that future a reality right now. But the Lord keeps kindly reminding me that it’s not time for that… yet. This is a season for hopeful expectation, yes, but it’s also a season of preparation. I believe we are being given an opportunity to shake off old stuff—old habits, incorrect thoughts, false beliefs—so that we don’t bring it into the next season with us.
In the Old Testament, Israel had a king named Saul. We often remember him for the last part of his story, when he became crazy and jealous and chased David around the country trying to kill him. The king who started out with so much promise ended up hurting the nation in some truly appalling ways. But even at the beginning of his story, we see hints of who he would become.
“When Samuel had all Israel come forward by tribes, the tribe of Benjamin was taken by lot. Then he brought forward the tribe of Benjamin, clan by clan, and Matri’s clan was taken. Finally Saul son of Kish was taken. But when they looked for him, he was not to be found. So they inquired further of the Lord, “Has the man come here yet?”
And the Lord said, “Yes, he has hidden himself among the supplies.”” 1 Samuel 10:20-22 (NIV)
Can you believe that? Saul hid during his coronation ceremony! All eyes were on him and yet, he was nowhere to be found. Saul wasn’t being humble, nor was he a shy person, I believe his insecurities caused him to hide. He didn’t know what to do with the entire nation looking to him to lead and instead of confronting those very real and understandable fears, he found a place to escape their gaze. Instead of trusting that the Lord had called him, he was focused on his own strength.
Insecurity and fear are threads that we see running throughout Saul’s entire story. These reach a crescendo when David is selected by God to replace Saul. That threat to his power was unacceptable and Saul turned his anger toward the man after God’s own heart.
I really wonder what would’ve happened if Saul had relied more upon the Lord and less upon himself. If Saul had been able to identify his fears and insecurities and submit them to God early on, might he have gone on to be a wonderful king who led Israel with truth and righteousness? Could he be listed as one of Israel’s greatest rulers today had he been willing to submit himself to the Lord? We will never know the answers to these questions, but I do believe this story can be a powerful lesson for us today.
What we don’t handle today, will need to be dealt with in the future.
I fully believe the baggage we don’t deal with today will follow us into the next season of our lives. Our insecurities in singleness will only be amplified in a relationship. Finding our identity in others will only be highlighted with children around. Our pride and selfishness will only be magnified when leading a team or an organization.
While we will never be perfect or without sin, I believe we have been given a moment in time to process through some things that we may have been avoiding. I believe that God wants to heal and set us free while we’re keeping our distance. I think that he wants to put an end to some of the patterns and cycles in our lives that have persisted for far too long. I believe this is a season where generational curses can be stopped, strongholds torn down, and truth can prevail in our lives, minds, and hearts.
I believe big things are coming in the future, and I believe God wants to prepare us today. Are you willing?
What is the Holy Spirit saying to you?
How can you set aside time to examine your heart and mind with him today? This week?